number one.

i'm not sure how you live your life. i have the "up" moments, and the "down" moments, but most of the time i get through it alright. i don't live every minute thinking that it is simply one less that i have in my life, but i am forced to look forward to the next waste of time packed into my busy day, that keeps me from doing other things. homework when my shows are on, physical therapy when i want nothing more than to sleep by the pool, school when i want to be out having fun. but what kind of way is that to live life? should we not look forward to each moment, and embrace it. time is something that can never be replaced, we'll never get more of it. i don't think we should live mourning the loss of time, but simply live it to the fullest so that we never look back and regret. this week a friend of mine lost his father. it was a freak accident, he slipped while hiking in the mountains, fell off of the cliff, and did not make it. a father, husband, mentor, friend, one day grandfather, was gone in an instant. there was no time to say goodbye, not any time to make amends. so instead of holding grudges, or spending the present looking into the future, we need to forgive and forget, move on and love, treasure each moment we spend with someone, knowing that the future will always come, so we don't need to sit around waiting for it. i want a life filled with love, and joy, and passion. i want my friendships to last a lifetime, my relationships to be something i can look back and be thankful for, my family to be my rock, and every memory to be one i treasure. im tired of wasting life, because in an instant, it could all be gone.